Tuesday, Oct. 08, 2002 - 11:16 P.M.
I received a package in the mail yesterday. It's the first I've received from England since Lee returned, and it was wonderful. Among other goodies, was a postcard he found on which the following poem was printed.
WORDS, WIDE NIGHT
Somewhere on the other side of this wide night
and the distance between us, I am thinking of you.
The room is turning slowly away from the moon.
This is pleasurable. Or shall I cross that out and say
it is sad? In one of the tenses I am singing
an impossible song of desire that you cannot hear.
La lala la. See? I close my eyes and imagine
the dark hills I would have to cross
to reach you. For I am in love and this
is what it is like or what it is like in words.
I don't think I could have summed up EXACTLY how I'm feeling any more perfectly. The days melt into one another and I am flung reluctantly back into the swing of things. Nothing seems to shine quite as brightly as it did when we were together, and yet I am happier than ever before. I look forward to everything we have planned and fill my time by deaming of how wonderful I know it will be. Plans, dreams, hopes, and schemes. That's what it's all about in my world at the moment.
Ja
- "Mad World" by Tears for Fears
- "candy apple red sheer lipgloss with gold flecks
- reduced fat "super chunk" peanut butter
- Anitcipating seeing and re-reading "The Rules of Attraction"
- manicured nails in a metallic plum shade
- Weight Watchers
- nightime d-land updates
- chunky amber jewelry
- LEE, LEE, LEE
- St. George's Cross flags in my bedroom and car
- late night cigarette drives and sing along radio with my roommate
- getting to see the puppies this weekend
- expecting my German passport within days
- UK job prospects
- Visiting Salem with awesome friends and getting spooked
Nein
- Having to go home this weekend and deal with my parents this weekend
- horribly boring days at work where I spend hours doing fuck all
- crappy ass huge bank that screws me over big time
- being tired every morning because I'm finding it difficult to fall asleep at night
- money issues
- having that fucking Avril Levigne song "Sk8er Boi" stuck in my head for days on end
- Have I mentioned dealing with my parents?
- worrying about a friend of the famlily having open heart surgery
- the news - that shit's just depressing lately
- having to postpone haircut until finances are more comfortable
- finding a hole in favorite shoes
- boring diary lists
Bis später!
